Early Death Preparation

So much time at home has given me the perfect opportunity to start on a project I've wanted to do for some years now.  When someone is dying of a disease, they have the chance to record videos and audio samples,  write letters and leave gifts behind.  When you die of something like a car accident, you don't get that opportunity.  In case I die early, I wanted to leave things behind for my family and friends.

I've already recorded videos saying goodbye to everyone I'm close with in my life.  I've already written (typed) them letters saying additional things.  Maybe I'll find pictures and put them on the flash drives I've made for everyone.  To whoever ends up finding the stash, they'll find my Facebook login so hopefully they can post one last status update.  It would be very unfortunate if I died in a house fire at my place haha!

It's weird saying goodbye to people when I'm not really close to death.  I rewatched some of the videos and I'm not all that emotional in them either.  I suppose this is just how I am.  I had hoped to fix that in years past, but so far I'm still the same.

I'm thankful that I thought of this.  If I'm dead, my parents will have audio clips of me telling them I love them.  But maybe that's not helpful?  They won't be able to move on if they just keep playing those things over and over again.  I would want them to move on, impossible as I know it would be.  Such an interesting subject to think about, death is.  I find people not so interested in talking about it because of how grim it is, but sometimes I just want to delve into it.

'Tis a finished project I hope no one ever finds out about. 

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  1. UnknownApril 10, 2020 at 9:53 AM

    I thought about death all the time....so much so that I dont care about he effect of coronavirus that much.

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    1. DustinApril 11, 2020 at 2:17 PM

      I understand. Sometimes I feel that if my parents were't around, I would do a lot more risky stuff.

      I think we feel this way because we haven't found that thing we really want to live for. But I do believe that life is beautiful, I just want to feel that with my heart instead of just knowing it with my mind. I hope we find what we're looking for soon :)

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