Into 2019

You can tell by the title that nothing all that great has happened this year.  Still no luck in love.  Tried speed dating again, interesting but nothing came of it.

Met Tara and Emily who I knew in Japan on different trips in the same week, so that was cool.  Went to Minnesota to see Tara and hang out for a few days.  Loved seeing her!  Wish more people could have made it but that's life.  Thanks Tara for driving down, see you again soon!  Visiting Cedrec in August.

Do you think you will be happy with your life if you don't accomplish some bigger purpose?  Is it enough to just be happy in your own world?  I think the answer depends on the person.  What do I want my answer to be?


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